Two year mark

Time sure does seem to fly by. It has been two years since severing ties with a group of friends whom caused nothing but negativity and drama in our lives. I think was still hurts me the most is knowing that in those two years, not one person has reached out to us or shown interest in wanting to mend our friendship. Ouch. I guess I should not have expected any less. The husband had been friends with these people for 20 plus years. I had known them for over ten. Never in my wildest dreams did I think we would ever walk away from such history and memories. Something changed in me when we got married. I realized how important a marriage is and found it hard to be around people who had such disregard for their vows. I no longer wanted negative people around me as I was going through some tough times in my life and desperately needed  some positivity.

Don't get me wrong...it still hurts more times than not. I miss the fun times that we did have together. I miss being around the kids and being able to watch them grow. However, I do not miss the drama! I cannot find the words to explain how nice it is to no longer have to worry about what is being said behind my back. I still get anxious around town, worried that I will run into them and it being awkward. I wish that they cared more about us not being in the picture. Instead, I feel as though they washed their hands in relief.

There is something about the two year mark that feels invigorating. To think that I have gone two whole years with my feet on the ground, holding true to myself. That is an accomplishment that I never thought I was strong enough to withstand. I figured by now that I would have caved, or reached out in desperation. The two year mark after severing ties with my sister, was a milestone and felt amazing. I was happy to find that the two year mark regarding my friends, would come with the same refreshing feeling. It will be interesting to approach the four year marks and revisit my feelings. I am hoping to have grown more as an individual and be more comfortable in my own skin. I have come a long way these last couple of years and am anxious to see what the future holds.